This story is part of a series that explores the lives and identities of international students at the University of Iowa. All stories are written by Katherine Lyu, who served as the International Student and Scholar (ISSS) peer assistant for the last two years and will graduate with a BA in English and creative writing in summer 2024.   

Oliver Krishnan recalls one of his childhood fantasies was dinosaurs, then he penned a story about a boy who befriends a velociraptor, inspired by his dinosaur fantasy. "People might compare this story to 'The Water Horse,' which is also a book turned into a film, supposedly originating from the Loch Ness monster lore. However, my tale has no historical ties; it's purely a figment of my imagination, but I cherish it that way."  

Krishnan, an undergraduate at the University of Iowa studying English and creative writing, hails from Malaysia. Like high school students worldwide, Krishnan wasn't certain about his desired field of study in college. Initially, he aspired to become a paleontologist, scouring for dinosaur fossils solo. Later, his ambitions shifted towards becoming a singer-songwriter akin to Miley Cyrus. To craft songs, he began writing lyrics, which gradually led him to poetry, and subsequently, to prose and storytelling. Proficient in English, he often conversed in the language at home with his family. Identifying also as South Indian, Tamil was frequently spoken at his household, though he remains uncertain about the exact distance of his ancestry from India, noting both his grandparents and parents were born in Malaysia.  

Perhaps the maternal cultural and environmental background plays an indispensable role in shaping one's self-perception. Krishnan credits his mother for raising him and his sister in an exceptionally nonjudgmental and open environment. For instance, discussions on identity, sexual education, or sexual identity are rare among parents and their children. Fortunately, his mother was open to such discussions. Growing up, his exposure to thought-provoking television shows like Grey's Anatomy and Ally McBeal played a significant role. These adult-themed, PG-13-rated shows often delved into sexuality, trauma, and death, providing his mother with opportunities to teach them about topics not covered in school, despite the presence of sex education classes.  

Krishnan identifies as gay. Before settling on his orientation, he was curious about bisexuality. Even in a relatively relaxed and open family setting, his mother believed in not making decisions without trying things first. She encouraged exploration before settling on any conclusions. It wasn't until last year that he fully came out, finding the experience unexpectedly liberating.  

There's often an assumption that the U.S. offers greater freedoms, which holds true to some extent. Before moving to the U.S., Krishnan anticipated entering a country with greater freedom of speech and openness. However, when discussing freedom and its impact on identity, Krishnan questions, "What do you consider freedom?" He indeed acknowledges the increased opportunities to discover oneself here, especially within the creative writing program, where one can openly acknowledge their sexual orientation and enjoy greater creative freedom.

"At home, I might not have had the opportunity to write a story with a gay character. I mean, you could publish it, but not necessarily promote it. You might tuck the book away on a shelf, hidden among others, making it seem less alien. That's usually how I found books with Malaysian gay protagonists. I had to search meticulously, you know, to ascertain their identity.

But here in the U.S., working within a creative writing program, collaborating with a local publisher, and having my books published here, I see it as an opportunity for people to understand my stories, not entirely mine, but my perspectives or viewpoints, because that's another reason I write.  

I feel there are certainly life-affirming books and universal stories enough to make me feel represented. Yet, sometimes, I feel underrepresented. I wish for my stories that not only represent me but also those like me. I enjoy such stories, whether they're based on culture, sexuality, or general personality."  

Krishnan’s film review website, "The Oliver Opinion," features his takes on American movies, predominantly Marvel films. He doesn't want to be just another listener; he seeks to share his perspectives with the world.  

His goal is to publish a novel. In fact, he already authored a thin booklet when he was 17, the story mentioned at the beginning about a boy and a velociraptor becoming friends. Echoing the encouragement from the writing instructors to revisit past works, Krishnan believes in revisiting that story with a fresh, more mature perspective. 

International Programs (IP) at the University of Iowa (UI) is committed to enriching the global experience of UI students, faculty, staff, and the general public by leading efforts to promote internationally oriented teaching, research, creative work, and community engagement.  IP provides support for international students and scholars, administers scholarships and assistance for students who study, intern, or do research abroad, and provides funding opportunities and grant-writing assistance for faculty engaged in international research. IP shares their stories through various media, and by hosting multiple public engagement activities each year.